Thursday 27 December 2012

December

First of all,

MERRY CHRISTMAS PEEPS!

Hope you all made a christmas wish! I wish the very best to each and everyone and may the year ahead will be a fruitful one!

Christmas used to be the favourite day of the year for me but this year I spent it in my room watching dramas from the laptop. So lifeless ey. Well, I did countdown with some friends though at some random park. It was quite nice actually when everyone started shouting "Merry Christmas" as soon as the time turned 00:00. Love hanging out with my friends.

The life in Tawau is so chill/boring. There's nothing to do here except for high tea, movies, drinking and the pace here is like so slow. It's quite nice though if you really want to rest or to relax a bit and we have tons of good food here. So, it's a really nice place to gain weight! And I gained a lot of weight since I got back. Sigh!

And so, I know I talked about wanting to rest and stuff but then the stress and sadness were too much for me. So, I got back together with him when he talked to me. I know its not the best choice but I really can't give up on him just yet. Especially, when he asked me to come home to him. He said that he's my home and my heart melted instantly. I know I'm stupid but I really couldn't stand the cold war. So yeah, we're back together and I thought nothing would change if we get back together. But in fact, nothing really stayed the same after the fight. Now I don't even know where I stand. Sigh. We'll see how it goes.

Overall, December has been a really tough month for me and I just wish that things will get better in 2013. All the best and wish me luck. *fingerscrossed*

p/s: Will try to change my blog design soon. Couldn't even stand it myself. Please bear with me for now.

Loads of love
XXX


"Santa can you hear me? I just want to be happy and that's my only wish this year."

Thursday 6 December 2012

What I Need

I can't do this anymore. I really have to let go now. I love him so much and it hurts so much to know that he lied about loving me when he actually still love her. I can't take it anymore. I just need to run away from all of these and I need to be alone. I just hope that I can have the rest I need without anyone telling what I should or should not do. Please just leave me alone for a bit. I just need some time to get better. I really can't take it more. It's too much on me and I'm suffocating. I just need some time.


"Time heals every pain but it is also the hardest medicine to take."