Now the lesson's learnt

Don't be too confident that the person who you thought will be there when you need him or her will always stay there. Just because he or she likes you a lot doesn't mean that he or she will always catch you when you fall. You might mean a lot to that person but you're not necessarily the one. So, if you ever meet someone who loves you a lot and who you love too, grab him as hard as you can and don't ever let go. Don't ever think that he or she will always wait for you or else you will only see him or her turning away and just be a passer-by in your life.

My fear..

I'm going back on Thursday and I know I should be saying this like : "I"M GOING HOME!! YEEAAHHH!!!" But I don't know why I just can't. Well, maybe I know. It just feels so heavy. I've never felt this way to anyone before especially its between a guy who doesn't care about me and my beloved home. I just wish that school holiday won't come so quickly. It's really not enough. The only thing I look forward to every morning is to see you walking into the dining hall for breakfast or to bump into you between classes. Now that we're gonna be so far apart, I really feel like I'd rather go through the boring routined school but get to see you at least once every day than spending my time in my comfortable hometown where I grew up but knowing that I won't cross your mind even once.

I accidentally saw 11.11. I hope you're the one who's missing me although I know it's impossible. 

If you asked me how many times you have crossed my mind 

I would say once because you never really left

All I want for Christmas is YOU!!

It's been a long time since I last blogged >,<

Just had our Christmas Dinner last night and it was FABULOUS! well.... not the food.. and the DJ.. and the songs for disco... But all the Concordians are AWESOME!!!! My one and only Christmas in Concord XD Had so much fun with all my friends and we did cam-whore a lot, as always.. XD Thats what we do best!! XD And I took picture with him for the second time!!! XD I know I kept saying that I want to get over him but I really can't do it for now, especially when I know that he might pop out around me any time. Gonna miss him like hell during Christmas break I guess but I really hope that the feelings for him could fade away as soon as I get back here next January.. Keeping my fingers crossed... >,<

And we had a little warm gift exchange party... It feels like a family... AWWWWW... love you all so so muchh!!!! Thank you Annette for the gift and thank you Sandra, Shayne and Yee Xin for the cards.. Appreciate it so so much..

To my BFF s in Malaysia,
BE PREPARED!!! THE OLIVIA IS BACK!!! XD miss you guys damn much!!!! see you soon!!!

XXX

Me and my darling =D

My Best Friend, Sandra since I was three! =)

THE GUYS!!

 THE GIRLS!!

Cam-whoring in the toilet >,<

KARMA

KARMA is something I don't used to think about, something I don't really believe.
But now I have to because it finally happened to me.
I'd rather being hurt by thousands of people before falling in love with you than being loved by thousands of people but losing the chance that I might have you.

The Star

When the Star first laid its eyes on the Moon,
Never did it know that it can't take its eyes off the Moon anymore.
The Moon is like the most beautiful thing that it has ever seen.
Since then, everytime the Star blinks,
Its for the the Moon.
Hoping to be the shiniest star in the universe
Hoping to catch the attention of the Moon
But no matter how hard the Star tries
The Moon never noticed the presence of this little Star
And so the Star kept waiting and waiting
Maybe one day
The Moon will finally realise that there is this little Star
Who smiles when the Moon smiles
And cry when the Moon's sad
Or maybe one day
The Sun will come out
And the Star will no longer look at the Moon

I'm still loving you - Shiga

When I close my eyes I think of you

And the times we've had been through

Even though we're far apart right now

I remember back when you were here with me

How you've made my world complete

Now I'm left alone

We talked about love and hope

Wishing we could start our live our own

I wish that I could live without you

Why did you tear my heart apart

You said you'll love me from the start

All those painful things you've put me through

But I'm still loving

I've tried to give my best to you

I don't deserve the things you do

Everything has gone to memories

I just wish I knew the truth behind the lies

11:11:11, 11/11/11

OMG!!!!!!! Its finally 11/11/11 and I passed my 11:11:11, 11/11/11 in front of a computer just to take picture of the time.. =.= hmmmm..... NEEEVVVEEERRRMMIIINNNDDD......
Hope you guys wished big at that time as I did and i even made THREE wishes... Hope they will come true >,<... Nothing really happened today though.. except some annoying scenes that shayne and sandra are going to play on Saturday.... >,<
And I'm sick!! T^T please ask the cough and sore throat to go away!!! and i think im losing my voice... TOT sobs sobs.....
Anyway.... enjoy your last few hours (according to UK time) on 11/11/11 and HAVE FUN!!!!

loves....

11:11:11,11/11/11

not going to happen again.... XD

DRESSING UP!!!

Someone sent me a short paragraph about girls dressing up...
This is how it goes like :


She dresses to please herself, not you


We're all guilty of editing our tastes a little when we meet someone we want to impress. You know the kind of thing – you're dating a rock fan, so you move your vast collection of Kylie CDs to the back of the shelf. Fine. It's called dating.


But if you want things to last long-term, you should each be true to yourselves. Embrace your different tastes as well as the ones you have in common. A girl who dresses to please you may seem to fulfil your idea of the perfect woman, but she's not being herself – and that will cause resentment once she remembers that she loathes wearing high heels. A woman who dresses to please herself is also likely to be happy in her own skin, and therefore more at ease physically and socially.

I think its really true though and its kind of a motivation for me coz I always dresses up to please HIM instead of myself.. for me, I'd really prefer to wear my favourite hoodie to school rather than the uncomfortable pretty pretty itchy clothes...

So... starting from tomorrow.. I WILL REBORN!!!!! 11/11/11 is gonna be Olivia's Independent Day.. A day which I'm gonna lock my heart up and not let any *censored*s make me do stupid things anymore!!! YOOHOOO!!!!

I will keep my promise that I wont like a guy or even bother thinking about a guy starting from tomorrow... I'm gonna be super COOL like "YO MAN!! WASSSUP!!!"
JUST KIDDING HAHAHAHAHAHA

Bye XD hugsss

Somebody

Sometimes I really wanted to be that somebody instead of just the one who's always with that somebody.. It's not that I'm complaining but somehow I just wana know how it feels to be the first one to be seen and to be talked to...

Btw... I went jogging for 30 minutes and burnt 210 calories!!! XD havent been sweating like this for more than a few years... A good start and let's hope that i can keep it up... XD

Halloweeeeeeeeeeeeeeennnnn!!!

Halloween this year was superb!!!! hmm.... actually that was the first halloween I have ever celebrated so... anyways... THERE WERE FiREWORKS!!!!!!! and it was AWESOME!!!!!! I was supposed to be the dark angel but i didn't really look like one though... but i had lots of fun yesterday night taking pictures and stuff...

Oh yea... something =.= happened... there's this girl who always *censored*es everyone off everytime when she talks.. and then my friends and i were taking group photos but suddenly she came in and joined the group photo... me n shayne were like... =.= what the.......

other than that everything is great.... look forward to next year's halloween!!! HOPE WE STILL CAN CELEBRATE TOGETHER!!!! Gonna miss these moments so much!! XXX

BTW... i cam whored for a while after that coz i really like my make up XD and i took some funny version ones... XD

THE SLOGAN!!!

I live for myself
I live for myself
I live for myself
I FUCKING LIVE FOR MYSELF!!!!!!!!!

I am H-A-P-P-Y

I am very happy
Because I have an awesome mother
Who supports me whatever I want to do

I am very happy
Because I have a loving brother
Who always send me money to shop

I am very happy
Because I have a cute sister
Who I always bully but still tell me all her secrets

I am very happy
Because I have a thoughtful cousin
Who always correct me when i am wrong

I am very happy
Because I have so many friends
Who I can rely on
Who listen to me
Who always make fun of me
Who can always make me laugh non-stop

With all the happiness I have
I think it can fill the cracks of my broken heart
And relieve the pain of my aching heart

Time heals..

It's been almost a month
After it happened and you didn't call or even text me
But I think its better this way
Both for you and for me
I don't know if I can still stand my ground and made the same decision if I have heard your voice
I don't really know how you feel
But for me
I've never shed a tear for this
You might think that I don't love you
But believe it or not
I do love you and deep down I know I still do
Distance and changes that we had
Made me feel that we really can't catch up with each other
Sorry that I chose to be more independent
Sorry that I chose to leave all the pasts behind
Sorry that I got used to the life without you
If we ever see each other again one day
Which I'm pretty sure that we will
Please pray that my love for you wont make me do anything stupid just like it used to
For the very last time
I wana say this to you like I used to
"Please know that I love you more than anything else in the world"

broken heart..

when our eyes met in the air
my heart was thumping so fast
and i wished that time could just stop
that was the only thing i look forward to every day
at that moment
i thought everything was going so well
but when u saw me and said 'shit'
i literally heard my heart breaking into pieces
if this is how you really feel
i wont let you see me anymore
and this time
I MEAN IT

Neighbour!!!

I have a very cute neighbour who suddenly came into my room when i was cam-whoring.. and what i did was i closed the photo booth and gave her a guilty smile....

This was our conversation :
Amanda: what are you doing?
Me: nothing =)
Amanda: Are you watching porn?? @.@
Me: NO!!! =.=
Amanda: Then what are u doing?
Me: I was cam-whoring.. ^.^'''
Amanda: really... lets cam-whore together...

hahahahahahahahahahhahahaha........... this is what we do when we have nothing else to do... XD

Wednesday Lunch...

had shin ramen with Shayne again!!!! in student kitchen this time!! YYEEAAAHHH!!!!!!!

11.11, 11/11/11

I really cant get you out of mind
I really cant get my eyes off you
I really cant stand not seeing you even just for a day
If I really didn't get to see you
I'll miss you like hell
And there is nothing I can do about it
I don't know if I love you
But I'm pretty sure that I like you a lot
More than I thought I do
Especially in just one-month time
Although we never really talked before in person
Nor have we ever smile when we passed by each other
But I really like you
And I just want you to know that
When I'm typing this post
I MISS YOU SO MUCH
Although I just saw you 2 hours ago
I know its wrong to like someone who you barely even know
So,
If we are not meant to be
At exactly 11.11am on 11/11/11
I will try my very best to erase you from my heart...

That awesome girl (;

Shayne is awesome and I love her to the max. Mwahs 

Romantic supper.... NOT

Had shin ramen as supper with Shayne XD love the way we cook it with eggs and we broke an egg each.. so.... we fought on who should eat the broken ones.. at last Shayne won and i ate the good one.. =.= hehehe... she loves me too much to let me eat the broken ones.. XD love her sooo much too.... MUACKS <3

Relaxing after test... XD

Had lunch with Shayne at Ricoco!!! XD both of us had wild mushroom risotto... love it sooo much... but most importantly, I have my COSMOPOLITAN!!!!! XD vodka with cranberry juice and lime.... NICE!!!! While we're waiting for the food to come, a Nerd (Shayne) took out a book and started reading.... hmmm..... hahaha... but we still had a really great time and bought a lot food... XD especially CHOCOLATE!!!! which will make us fat but... oh well.... hahahahahahahaha XD

Whatever you want..

I would really be happy to stay out of your way but I'm so sorry that the school is just too small...
It's not that I want to keep appearing in front of you..
Or you can just tell me your schedule on which way you are gonna go at what time and I'll stay as far from there as I could..
You really don't have to make it so obvious that you don't want me anywhere near like I'm what kind of virus..
Whatever you want I'd be more than happy to cooperate...

Without a reason ^^

I don't know why

But everytime I sign into my facebook

You will always be the first profile i visit

I don't know why

But everywhere I go

My eyes will always be looking for you  

I don't know why

But everytime I hear things about you

I will be so happy that I know you more

I don't know why

But everytime you walk into the room

My heart pounds so fast like it's gonna jump out of my chest any time

I don't know why

But everytime I see you 

I am relieved that I have done the most important thing of the day

I don't know why

But I love the way I feel

When the smile on my face is because of you

Dear Diary...

Hi, I'm Olivia.