My fear..

I'm going back on Thursday and I know I should be saying this like : "I"M GOING HOME!! YEEAAHHH!!!" But I don't know why I just can't. Well, maybe I know. It just feels so heavy. I've never felt this way to anyone before especially its between a guy who doesn't care about me and my beloved home. I just wish that school holiday won't come so quickly. It's really not enough. The only thing I look forward to every morning is to see you walking into the dining hall for breakfast or to bump into you between classes. Now that we're gonna be so far apart, I really feel like I'd rather go through the boring routined school but get to see you at least once every day than spending my time in my comfortable hometown where I grew up but knowing that I won't cross your mind even once.

I accidentally saw 11.11. I hope you're the one who's missing me although I know it's impossible. 

If you asked me how many times you have crossed my mind 

I would say once because you never really left