My break

Have you ever felt so tired. The kind of tired that you can't just sleep it away. I really trusted him I really did. I gave him my heart but he didn't appreciate it. Now I'm left with all the lies and excuses which I thought was the truth. How funny I was to really open up to him, thinking that he's my future. I really think it's the best to have a break just to be by myself. I don't want to put myself at a position where people can just let me down so easily and I can fall from heaven to hell within seconds. I'm gonna keep my heart to myself and not giving to anyone anymore. Be with someone - you get happy - you hope - they break their promises - they break your heart. Same things keep happening and I'm really tired with this kind of shit. Oh well, life goes on.

XXX

"Sometimes we have to let go of what's killing us, even if it's killing us to let go."

My Apologies and Catch Up!

I think I kind of have forgotten that I have a blog and deserted this place for a bit. Sorry about that. Now where do I start. So many things happened in the last few months. Too many changes, some good some bad.

Well, first of all, I GOT INTO UNIVERSITY OF BATH which is ranked top 1 for Accounting and Finance last year! ^^V Yay for me! However, being a Science student for all the years I've lived, sudden change to a humanities course is killing me, like literally. Same routine every day: Go for lectures. Stone. Go back to my room. Go for Seminar. Stone. Go back to my room. There is not a single thing that I can understand but it's getting better now because I met a lot of lovely and wonderful people here mostly Malaysians. They make me feel so comfortable and not so homesick. I still remember when I first got here I don't know a single sole and I just locked myself in the room and anti-social and skype with all my beloved Concordians. I miss them so much. They really made me feel so much at home. All the time we spent together and it felt like we're really a big family. Will never forget them!

Next, I ended things with the doctor whom I mentioned is too mature for me. Mainly because I met someone who made me fall in love with him like *click* that fast. He's everything no one I've dated can ever be. He's sweet, responsible and funny. He always makes me laugh every time I talk to him and I like the way we talk, like we are best friends. Most importantly, he forever put me as his priority and he cares about how I feel. "I will double compensate all the pain he gave you. I'll treat you better than he did and I will not hurt you the way he did." That's what he said and he really did keep his promise. He always make me feel like a princess when I am with him. And he really likes to spoil me : Playing the fireworks for me when I got mad. Ran all the way down the street just to get me a bouquet of flowers. And buying me the things that I like. He said all the money spent on me is so much more worth it than spending it on himself if it can make me happy. It's been 2 months and he still makes me fall in love with him every day. I just hope that this time, it will last. But, who knows? 

P/S: I'll try to blog more often.

XXX

"To love is nothing. To be loved is something. To love and to be loved with the same one is EVERYTHING."