Those random feelings

Sometimes, I really feel like I don't have enough middle fingers to express how I feel. Ugh!

Only One - Jason Chen

Even though you've never loved me, you're the only one
Even though you've really hurt me, you're the only one
How could I ever get over a love I never knew
I guess I'm still just a fool, you're the only one, the only one

I don't know how you make me feel this way
Never knew my heart could feel such pain
Why won't you just give me a chance to show I love you
Every time we try to talk, you just walk out the door

But every time I try to let you go, my heart holds onto you
No matter what I say or what I do, I feel like such a fool
Even when you lie right to my face, I wish that they were all true
I guess you just really wanna leave, so I'll let you go

How can I get you out my head, you're the only one
You will always be my baby, you're the only one
Even though you've never loved me, you are still my queen
I'm just a fool who's in love, you're the only one, the only one

I haven't felt your touch in so long, and the image of your smile is long gone
Did all the memories that we had shared mean nothing to you?
You lead me on, you broke my heart
So why can't I get over you?

Oh every time I try to let you go, my heart holds onto you, my heart holds onto you
No matter what I say or what I do, I feel like such a fool
Even when you lie right to my face, I wish that they were all true
I guess you were never mine, so why do I care?

Even though you've never loved me, you're the only one
Even though you've really hurt me, you're the only one
How could I ever get over a love I never knew
I guess I'm still just a fool, you're the only one, the only one

How can I get you out my head, you're the only one
You will always be my baby, you're the only one
Even though you've never loved me, you are still my queen
I'm just a fool who's in love, you're the only one, the only one


"You're the only one."

Ugh!

Deep down, I hoped that maybe someday, just maybe, that he would love me back. When I found out that he never did at all, I could barely contain the resentment that starts to build up in me. I used to think that how could you possibly love someone too much but you made it possible. Now, how much love I had back then for you turned into a proportionate amount of hatred and anger. Even though my heart tells me that you shouldn't hate someone for not loving you back, but could you blame me for hating someone whom I never thought of having a chance with and suddenly made me fell for him so hard and made me believe in all the fairytale stories that he lied about. He had my trust, all of 'em but it seemed so easy for him to just turn around and leave as if all of these meant nothing at all. It felt like "Well now that I've got you, I had fun and AU REVOIR!" Fuck you dude. Seriously, FUCK YOU! I am so mad that because of you I questioned myself. I asked if I'm really not good enough and you made me feel like I'm not worth to be loved. The heck was I thinking. Now I'll only blame myself for wasting my time and giving you chances that you obviously don't deserve. I wish you good luck and watch your back.

"If karma doesn't hit you, I gladly will."

修炼爱情

憑什麼要失望 藏眼淚到心臟
往事不會說謊別跟它為難
我們兩人之間不需要這樣
我想

修煉愛情的心酸 學會放好以前的渴望
我們那些信仰 要忘記多難
遠距離的欣賞 近距離的迷惘
誰說太陽會找到月亮
別人有的愛 我們不可能模仿

修煉愛情的悲歡 我們這些努力不簡單
快樂煉成淚水 是一種勇敢
幾年前的幻想 幾年後的原諒
為一張臉去養一身傷
別講想念我 我會受不了這樣

記憶它真囂張 路燈把痛點亮
情人一起看過多少次月亮
他在天空看過多少次遺忘
多少心慌

修煉愛情的心酸 學會放好以前的渴望
我們那些信仰 要忘記多難
遠距離的欣賞 近距離的迷惘
誰說太陽會找到月亮
別人有的愛 我們不可能模仿

修煉愛情的悲歡 我們這些努力不簡單
快樂煉成淚水 是一種勇敢
幾年前的幻想 幾年後的原諒
為一張臉去養一身傷
別講想念我 我會受不了這樣

笑著說愛讓人瘋狂
哭著說愛讓人緊張
忘不了那個人就投降

修煉愛情的悲歡 我們這些努力不簡單
快樂煉成淚水 是一種勇敢
幾年前的幻想 幾年後的原諒
為一張臉去養一身傷
別講想念我 我會受不了這樣

幾年前的幻想 幾年後的原諒
為一張臉去養一身傷
別講想念我 我會受不了這樣

“You never really stop loving someone. You just learn to live without them."